I am happy because I remain true to who I am

See that title it is the mantra that I live my life under. I refuse to be anything but honest and sincere about who I am and what I stand for. That may not always mean I am the most popular person in the world but it means that I am living life with a purpose. I am having one of those weeks where I see the extremes of raising a family that is closed knit and that cares deeply for each other. The good that comes from that like the girls doing groceries while I am at work. Jose folding all my clothes when he does the laundry and bringing it upstairs so I can put it away. The tears shed for a life gone because of the cruelty of our society and the inability to address the issues of mental instability and sickness that are suffered in our country and the world. I truly believe that this is the reason people automedicate and use drugs legal or illegal. I am tired of seeing life wasted and not lived with a purpose. I am thinking something should be done but some days it's hard for me to see the light. So I continue to say to those I love I love them and try to guide them in anyway I can through a path of enlightenment so they can make choices that will help them live a life of purpose. I have to keep reminding myself how important the path is, not for me to walk it for them but to make sure I am there to pick them up if they need some help along the way. You don't stop being a mother because your children grow up. It becomes an even more complex situation because not only are you a mother sometimes you have to be a friend and sometimes you just have to be. I think that one is the hardest for me because even though Nyome says I don't want to admit I have control issues I know I do and letting go it's not easy at all but I do it even when it pains me. That is motherhood in a nutshell this give and take of love respect and flexibility that at the end of the day allows you to be hugged by your kid and be told everyday you are loved. I never get tired of hearing that those words help me get up in the morning and face the day. In the designing front I am working on some projects and I am one of the Artist highlighted on http://www.diversitydesigns.net/ I was also asked to be a part of their design team and I am honored by the request looking forward to the challenge. I leave you with some of my pages that I haven't share yet on my blog.